I sometimes wonder what i must look like,from the outside ,when i'm having an 'episode'.Though i have to be careful not to let my curiosity get the better of me or i fear i may never leave the house again. I,ve just come round after spending the last three quarters of an hour trying to unsuccessfully stay awake. I was desperatly trying to watch the end of a film but although i think i managed to see most of it it was through a haze of semi consciousness. I was trying to move , to pick up the remote control as i needed to turn the volume down to work out if the sounds i was hearing really were M calling me, or if it was just my brain playing tricks. I couldn't pick it up though because i couldn't move, even though it was on the floor next to me. This must've lasted about three quarters of an hour, then i just suddenly came out of it. And i know the sensible thing would be to now go to bed but i need to clear my head first, get rid of the confusing blur